We are on a journey with an unknown destination. We must pull up our stakes and move on, but we have no idea to where God will lead us. I almost feel like Abraham when God told him to, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you” (Gen. 12:1 ESV). It is not the same since He has not promised us land or to make my family into a great nation. However, the lack of knowing what lies ahead and the waiting for God to show the way is much the same.
God has shown where we are not to go. He has seemingly opened doors, only to close them. It almost feels like being trapped in a room with a multitude of doors and trying to figure out which one provides the proper exit. I know that is not what God is doing, but with each opened and closed door, God is shaping our hearts and strengthening out faith. All the while he has been faithful to provide for us in our time of waiting and spiritual refinement. There are two passages that come to mind:
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:25-33 (ESV)
This speaks to me because these are exactly the worries that have been haunting me, especially in regards to my family. But, God has been providing just as He promised.
The other passage was penned by James:
2 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. James 2:1-4
Thus, in our current trial, we are trying to keep the joy knowing that in the end our faith will be strong.